a journal
For the days when those low hanging clouds seem brush the top of your very soul. When maybe just last night, a whole sky full of rain and winds of doubt squashed flat the places in you that had started to grow. Where do you look on days like this, when the whole world feels damp? At everything that’s wrong with you and your work and the people around you, and the weather, too? We’ve worked a whole day long, … Continue readingA Change In the Light
This was our first spring at the farm here in Virginia. Where the fields had been used for corn before we moved here, there was no telling how good of a hay cutting there would be our first year here. But the guys got heaps and heaps of pretty grass mowed and raked, tedded then raked again. It was pretty hay and perfect haying weather too- a sky as blue and sharp as any sky in Eastern Montana ever was; … Continue readingThe Gray Hay Days: When the Sun Rinses Out
Some days like this one the sky is so kind It rains on for hours, like she’s made up her mind There’s hay getting wet and my bees in a bind But she’s doing what she’s doing, and I really don’t mind.
There’s literally tons of grass rolled up and sitting in the field across from my house right now. I don’t have a job, a college education, or even a perfectly tidy house really. But I see grass and sky and cows and critters, all day long every day. Yesterday morning I sat in bed early and read in Luke 19- What had the servants done with the minas their master had given them to hang onto while he was … Continue readingJust a Bunch of Grass
You know the times you catch that wild kid of yours laying down on the front porch with a bug in his hand that he’s watching, engrossed, and being still, your teenager walking up through the front yard in some sparkling light , off in her own thoughts somewhere, completely unaware of how pretty she is? You think about a really good night with your husband and the kids’ birthdays coming up and how you craned your neck trying to … Continue readingThe Hard Won Moments
Looks like… I’ve given up, every day. I mean from that perspective it’s a good thing we are more or less homebound right now. There is no pulling this mop back! Anyone?!
I read this morning with the curtains open and facing a newly mown field, early morning shadows laid across the rows as if to hold them gently in place. Psalm 23- “You make me lie down in green pastures…” Acceptance of our humanity, of the rest that we need from time to time. The back of my neck still aches and all down my spine, my stomach reminds me it’s still not ready for a full meal, … Continue readingThe Rest That We Need
Something else I am so thankful for today? That moving day happened before this crappy sickness struck our house! Ans is home from the hospital but now I have it and let me tell you, I haven’t been this sick since we got influenza several years ago. So I am typing this post into my phone, sitting up in the bed where I’ve been for the last 36 hours. Moving day for the plants happened about a week ago. I … Continue readingMoving Day